Boxed & neglected,
With sorrow detected,
Upon myself I reflected,
The dots connected…
Well…
Guess I’m stuck here,
Forever… Forever…
Can’t save myself from,
This endless weather.
I suppose I should’ve known,
Myself much better than this.
Perhaps I was never meant,
To experience bliss.
To see a life outside these,
4 walls… Is all I wish.
……
Locked;
Inside these 4 walls,
I ignore every telephone call.
I repress;
Every hurtful thing that I saw,
I’ve swallowed up all of my flaws,
They dig;
My flesh with razor sharp claws.
My wounds are bleeding,
Someone pass me the gauze,
Because;
I want to cover up how I feel.
Living in delusion,
As I mask everything that’s real.
Holding these cards,
Like I’ve never played before,
Although I know the deal.
I can’t heal;
Until I crack the seal.
This food for thought will,
Be my final meal.
I raise my head from,
It’s darkened place.
Looking inna broken mirror,
Can’t recognize my own face.
Sitting still & content letting,
My potential go to waste.
Perhaps my faith was misplaced,
Or;
Perhaps I got a taste of,
My own medicine.
Only dreams I chase,
Deep in slumber,
Gimme more melatonin.
Sleep’s the cousin of death,
&;
I’m tryna’ cure this omen.
Flyin’ under the radar,
I’mma no man.
Heart colder than,
A snowman.
Drop the needle,
On a slow jam.
Going through life,
With no plan,
At all; Whatsoever.
How you gonna try,
To rain;
On my cloudy weather?
I’m just tryin’ to get better.
I’m
just
tryin’
to
get
better.
……
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
To my misery,
All alone…
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Leave me be!!
Leave me…
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
To my misery,
All alone…
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–
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Leave me be!!
Leave me…
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
To my misery,
All alone…
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These 4 walls,
Can’t contain me,
Or can they?
These 4 walls,
Slowly compress me,
To certain dismay.
Sorry; Can’t come out,
& play; Noo… not today.
Physically enslaved,
Running through,
Seasons just like,
An anime.
Moods I display,
Move through shades,
Of what’s light & grey,
While tree’s under,
The midnight moon,
Toss & sway.
Maybe this isolation,
Is just a phase.
Maybe I’m locked in,
The inferno;
With skin set ablaze.
I’m radiating hate,
Like;
A gamma ray,
Burnin’ hotter than,
Santa Fe;
Onna sizzling,
Summer’s day.
Withering away,
Into;
Crumbled decay.
Why must this be,
The price that I pay?
Why must I,
Remain to stay,
Only;
To waste away?
……
I think it’s time…
Let’s break down,
Our walls; Together.
I think it’s time…
You know;
It’s now or never.
I think it’s time…
We stand better,
Together.
I think it’s time…
You know;
It could be now,
But;
It’s probably never.
Watch as my sanity,
Floats away like,
A feather.
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4walls…
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