Drowning in something sublime.Yet, not quite Divine.Still searching for answers,In the depths of my own mind.Insanity's the key in deciphering;Reality. Repeated lessons,Have now led me to believe.I am no longer the same me; NotThe face all those eyes wanted to see.No endlessly seeking reflections.No more unwanted acts of depravity.Now I just crave the stillness of … Continue reading Title-less
The space between reality And dreams is thinning Unbearable so Its hard discerning the difference In that moment of waking Unbearable confusion has me Questioning Who am I? Where is this? What Happened? If it's not REAL Then why do I FEEL it? Every bruise and broken bone Every word harshly spoke Every choice. Every … Continue reading Walking the Line
Just let who i am die already. After all, that's the one You blame; for everything. No sense in having this head game. Continue on, keep blaming me Like you always do. I'll take responsibility for all of your insecurities and everything else Your scared to; claim. Just remember to engrave the name Into every … Continue reading Untitled, 5
Dear XXXX, Cant believe I am starting it this with these words, but I'm sorry for everything and the way things ended. I'm sorry I couldn't be whatever or whoever you needed me to be for you to be able to grow with me. I wish things turned out differently. You were the only person … Continue reading A Letter I will Never Send
I'll never say it out loud But i miss you. The person, Not the hell we went through. But why? Why do my thoughts Constantly remind me. Of everything. No peace. Just the mess left, the heart; wrecked. Tears in my eyes at i write. Fucking up, cant even spell tonight. You left a hole, … Continue reading GET OUT OF MY HEAD
It's my biggest issue. For fear of Rejection; Or could be the paranoia, From the schizoaffective disorder. Along with the bipolar. No reason to trust; When they all leave, or seem To judge. But then that's also my brain Fucking up. I don't talk about it much. If at all. No one cares, or understands. … Continue reading Trust
You still cross My mind; now opened. My eyes a bit Unfocused. Through the Emotions. I still hold You close. In my mind. A few blows To the head. Had me lost in time. Then I realized. I am not loved. I am the lonely One. I want for you; The sky, the sun, Moon … Continue reading Realization
Its started again. The rhyming in my head; Which I cant Comprehend. Is it a trend? Or a way To make amends; With myself I have hidden. Within the shadows of oblivion. As I slowly loose my grip. Now its changing. Let the shifting begin, As a way to ascend. To a higher thought process, … Continue reading Again
Almost drowned in the river Lethe, memories twisting and haunting me soul remembering instead of fading to the forgotten. I wonder now, why this is what I'm caught in. A tangled mess of past, dreams, and uncertain destiny. My soul screaming for some sort of release, or peace, shit even a cease; fire. Buried within … Continue reading Untitled Too
I see who I used to be When my eyes fall on you, I hear you speak; then Watch as you follow it through. So confused, did I leave a part Of me with you. If so what do I do, because they look so Much better behind your eyes. I'm just a distant memory … Continue reading Untitled One
In my silence. It's there you see In my silence The pain and greif In my silence I let it recede In my silence The love I never speak In my silence I'm allowed to set free In my silence Yet I still hold the belief.
Thanks for saving me from the monster I was becoming. You reflected every thing I needed to see. To remember who it is I am and what I want. I forgotten what I wanted to be, but I'm starting to remember. Though its cliche, thanks for loving the mess that was me. But now it … Continue reading Words unspoken
~♤~ Come now, let's chat awhile; Look beyond The dazzling smile. A heart fractured; in denial. Continuing on through this cycle. ~♡~ Deeper yet, My mind goes. Following this Sick ass flow. Down, down The rabbit hole. Not alice, But feel quite close. ~♧~ Bipolar lows, And Manic highs. Heartfelt laughs; To broken cries. As … Continue reading Mind’s Eye
My skin ignites, at just the thought of You...
Take a peak inside, I'm sure you'll find Something you like in my mind.