Jaw clenched. Can't comprehend, The vacancy in my chest; Again. Is this feeling You or Me? In-between maybe? I'm losing touch. Only tethered, with imagined love. Lust. Let me correct. Lie. About the Thoughts & Feelings. What you Mean. Who You are to Me. Something. Nothing. You have to be. So I can live in … Continue reading The Gray
Dear XXXX, Cant believe I am starting it this with these words, but I'm sorry for everything and the way things ended. I'm sorry I couldn't be whatever or whoever you needed me to be for you to be able to grow with me. I wish things turned out differently. You were the only person … Continue reading A Letter I will Never Send
I'm trying my hardest not to miss you; everyday.
Make it quick, Or painfully slow. Take your time; Or, blatantly, let me know. Please, love; just don't Sugar coat. How you feel, Behind your ego. Physical attractions, Are fleetingly so. Emotional attachments Tend to grow. In intensity. Can you feel, The chemistry? Almost like An epiphany! Or is this the codependency? Or maybe; your … Continue reading “Transparency, please?”
I wonder, do you hate me? Or the fact that The Connection; the Love, cant quite be severed. Masked, buried, hidden; maybe? Dont worry; remember, I'm just crazy. (NOT!) Conscious just gets hazy. Too much 3D programming Running in the background. And there's the blue screen! Watch It all crash; crumble. The walls turn to … Continue reading Untitled, For…
Drown me out, Take everything. Forget the sound, My light brings. Clarion call; Soul song, Quite an eerie Melody. Atleast the part I still sing. Questioning, The connection between You and me. That never leaves; Just gets buried Underneath, The Ego of me. Help me break free, And reconnect To the unconitional Love I seek. … Continue reading Untitled 3
Mirror, oh Mirror Show me everything You see. Show me everything I could be. Show me the truth We both seek. Mirror, my mirror Show me my soul Guide me tonight Remind me I'm whole. With or without Young or old Remind me Of love. Dont let me Be cold. Mirror, oh sweet mirror The … Continue reading Mirror
I let fear win, Relating to my heart And my own indecision. Never again.
Well here we go, promise I'm not too drunk to flow. Seems to help though. As i'm not sure why I'm rhyming yo. How do I tell you I was confused, abused, and delusional. How do I explain my brain ain't quite the same. I'm a bit more deranged than I claim, but crazy's always … Continue reading Feelin’
I broke my own heart; Not being honest. With the way I felt, about You.
Its started again. The rhyming in my head; Which I cant Comprehend. Is it a trend? Or a way To make amends; With myself I have hidden. Within the shadows of oblivion. As I slowly loose my grip. Now its changing. Let the shifting begin, As a way to ascend. To a higher thought process, … Continue reading Again
Almost drowned in the river Lethe, memories twisting and haunting me soul remembering instead of fading to the forgotten. I wonder now, why this is what I'm caught in. A tangled mess of past, dreams, and uncertain destiny. My soul screaming for some sort of release, or peace, shit even a cease; fire. Buried within … Continue reading Untitled Too
I see who I used to be When my eyes fall on you, I hear you speak; then Watch as you follow it through. So confused, did I leave a part Of me with you. If so what do I do, because they look so Much better behind your eyes. I'm just a distant memory … Continue reading Untitled One
They called me two faced; That's not the issue. Duality's the maze, I fall in; get chained to. Minds always in a race, With the me of yesterday. I feel crazed, in a haze; Stuck between insane, And the bipolar mundane. Emotions. So many polarities, More vast than the ocean. No wonder in coastin'; I'm … Continue reading Gemini
Thanks for saving me from the monster I was becoming. You reflected every thing I needed to see. To remember who it is I am and what I want. I forgotten what I wanted to be, but I'm starting to remember. Though its cliche, thanks for loving the mess that was me. But now it … Continue reading Words unspoken